Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Today.. as every day in my life, I used my time to think.. to analyze and to study everything that had happen, everything that is in my life.
For every revolution there should be a dance, for every change a prayer, for step a thanks.. because everything that had happen must have a reason, a why, an answer. Lets look deep into it, let's try to find out what everything means, why do I feel this way, why did it go this way.. your boredom and my pain, we both are the same, looking for a change, for excitement, but its not just that, its deeper than our human reality, its so deep that it seems like Destiny played a card or a trick on us... is just like if we roll the dice, and this is what we got..

Life can be sweet for many of us yet  bitter for other.. The sweet taste of knowing that you have someone for you, for each moment, the tranquil though that behind everything there is a designer, a creator, someone that protects you.. the bitter taste of dependance, of need and attachment, how pain full it is to be human, to want things, people, loved ones, the cruelty of understanding that you can't have them and the Childish but conscious suffering that is left at the end, that taste, that strong fragrance...

suddenly I saw everything so clearly, the fears that are in my mind.. the fear of loosing the only  one thing I have, every second I yearn to attain Her presence and to look at her eyes, but is just a fear, a childish fear, a conscious though that I ignore because I want to believe it.. but I know... I have nothing and am nothing, the cruelty and bitterness of knowing that tomorrow will be the same, that is everything a lie, a lie that i have to live.. a Lie that will never leave my heart and my mind that is so human.. There is no hope nor faith that there will come a Day. There is just the strong desire and hope that tomorrow will be different..

So after all there must be a reason, a reason why. I have to realize this now, at such a young age, or understanding.. there must be a reason  why I feel this way,  why it happens this way.. and still, what ever the reason is.. at the end is nothing  more than that..

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

The Nature of things, the nature of love, the algorithm of life, pleasure and the incertitude of all ignorant things..  All these aspects of life are nothing more but the hidden reality of life, a life in which faith, devotion, certitude, knowledge and overall understanding, can reach that higher point in which everyone dreams.

Another aspect to think about is that in this hidden reality nothing influences it more than society, family, friends, love ones, even trees around us, the clouds in the sky and the sun.  What I’m trying to say is that everything, within the realm of mortality is part of Nature, even change itself. The influence of everything either emotional or physical is no more than the influence of this one over each and every one of us.  But, as the proverb says “Vitam regit fortuna, non sapienta" (Fortune, not wisdom, rules lives.).  In each of us there is fortune, we are fortunate to be alive (are we really?), we are fortunate of our wealth (are we really?), fortunate of our family and friends (really?).

These are some thoughts.. Imagine the power of the word ‘Influence’ and weakness of the word ‘truth’.  I was discussing religion, in general, with a fanatic Christian, and nature of all the prophets or messengers of God (according to the Baha'i faith), how all of them said the same thing, that they are all the way and the truth... then he(Christian fanatic) came with this weird concept that pretty much I would have criticized and exterminated in my past atheist days, which is:
"the truth is that Jesus died for my sins"....
here's the thing, I didn't ask him to do it, I’m happy with my sins, I enjoy committing them, that's why I keep doing them, what a waste of life heh!!??  and then he told me that the fact is that
"Jesus raised on the third day" ...
Wow.. "Really!?" I said... I thought both facts can be proven.. so I went to Google and I made sure I was right, so this is what I found.

"A fact (derived from the Latin Factum) is something that has really occurred or is actually the case. The usual test for a statement of fact is verifiability, that is whether it can be shown to correspond to experience. Standard reference works are often used to check facts. Scientific facts are verified by repeatable experiments."  

So, this guy was telling me that, in fact... Jesus rose from the dead, I was in shock and is not just that, but that in other words is being proven that Jesus did.. after so much nonsense I went back to my seat and thought... what can cause a human being to blindly believe anything that is put in front of him without even asking?... this is more than just faith.

I love a quote from Wolfgang Brezinka in which he calls or sees society as
"An unrealistic overstimation of the power of reason", He states that "the belief that man can understand social processes in their entirety and that he has the ability to 'act autonomously' and practice 'self-determination by reason' without any kind of commitment to authority is 'an illusion' which amounts to the presumptuous claim of 'wanting to be like God both in knowledge and in the freedom to act."

In other words.. Society and in special those who claim to hold the truth or as they call it now, "Fact", are not just trying to impose and limit the understanding and freedom of others, but they are just deciding not in the name of their creator or so call "God" but they are acting as the one "God".  This unrealistic people that overestimate the power of Reason claim to hold the truth by attaching themselves to their idle fancies...If the more we know about this Complex world/society the harder it is for us to understand it, then what do we truly understand? Doesn’t it looks like is almost an illusion, painted with the vanity of Human, selfish and Irrational Thoughts.

At the end it is common sense that everything is ruled by its own nature, that the perception and understanding that we have of this are not more than personal opinions that shape and influence society.

I will end with the next quote of Johann Wolfgang von Goethe:
"All truly wise thoughts have been thoughts already thousands of times; but to make them truly ours, we must think them over again honestly, till they take root in our personal experience."